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I was young and so in love when I married you, nine years ago today. I never doubted my love for you or your love for me. I knew without a doubt that we could conquer any storm.

I was so young and so in love, I couldn’t imagine the difficulties that would come our way. Nine years ago I stood next to you, so happy to finally be married to you. I remember you kissing me on the forehead on our wedding day and knowing you would always keep me safe.

Before we even said “I do” we had talked about our children. We had spent hours picking out their names. We had no idea how hard it would be for us to have the child of our dreams. We had no idea how the emotional aspects of infertility would form a bond between us that can never be broken.

You were the only person who ever truly understood what it was like for me to not being able to give you a child. You were the person who held me when I cried a million tears and you were the person who comforted me when there were no more tears left to cry. And as desperately as you wanted children you made sure that I always knew I would always be enough if our wish didn’t come true. In those years of struggle, depression, and anxiety you became my rock. You were my stronghold. You were the reason that I got up everyday and kept trying to put one foot in front of the other and hold on as the emotions of our journey tried to pull me under to a place where I could no longer see the sun.

I loved you so much when I was young, I love you even more now that we have weathered some of life’s storms together. I dream of us growing old together, I dream of us dancing at our daughter’s wedding and holding our first grandchild. I know our love for each other will last for more than this lifetime. I know that you will always be my true love.

I knew on the day that I married you that I was the luckiest girl in the world and today, nine years later I know that marrying you was and is the best decision I have ever made. I love you so much Scott Alan, thank you for loving me even through the impossible times.

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Wordless Wednesday

Just another wordless Wednesday


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Always Together

She doesn’t go anywhere without one of her babies.


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Scott and I had an amazing weekend away together while my parents watched Kahlan.  Sometimes it is nice to get away and just be a couple instead of being parents 24/7.  We were amazed at how quiet our weekend was.  Our little girl chatters nonstop from the moment she wakes up until the moment she falls asleep, it was kind of nice to be able to hear each other without shouting over her for a day.

We had so much fun.  We went to a movie.  The Hunger Games… huge fan!  We went out to eat and I had a drink (never happens!) and it was so good.  We went shopping and looked for stuff for just the two of us and Scott spoiled me with more charms for my bracelet.  It was such a great weekend.

And of course since Kahlan was with Grandma and Poppy she had an amazing weekend too.  She was spoiled all weekend long.  She got to go to the park.  She got to go in a ride in Grandma’s car.  Grandma made her her favorite meal… brats! for dinner.  And she got much needed cuddles from Grandma.

The only part about going away for the whole weekend is how fast it goes.  I can’t believe how fast it went and now it is over and we are back to the grind.  Some Mondays are harder than others.

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Always Singing

Kahlan is always singing. Last night she pulled these pajamas out of her drawer and said “Mama these have the Muffin Man on them… I wear these.”


For the next hour she sang… “Do you know the muffin man the muffin man the muffin man. Do you know the muffin man who lives on Drury Ln”

Needless to say I have been singing that song all morning in my head!!

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